Unbearable Suffering: My Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Christopher Rice
Christopher Rice

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